Friday, December 5, 2014

An Irreversible Decision

At 8:02am on November 13, 2014, Sinae's life and mine were changed forever when our son, Uri Daniel Dirks, was born into this world after 36 hours of labor. Sinae said she's never seen me cry before but I certainly did then. The original due date was November 6th but he was seven days late. We worried about whether he would be okay and if Sinae would be able to give birth to him naturally. We really learned to depend on God through all of this. When we gave God everything and accepted that things might not go the way we wanted things happened. After the first full day of labor Sinae starting asking about getting a C-Section and we decided we'd go that way if nothing happened by morning. But it did. Sometime that night Sinae's water broke (something we thought had already happened) and at 1:20 the next morning Sinae felt pain she'd never felt before. We were both worried that something had happened to Uri but it turned out that he was just preparing to come into this world. We've heard talk of a C-Section and although I wouldn't wish for Sinae to go through all of that again I really treasure the unforgettable experience of doing things the natural way, with an epidural mind you, because it really prepared us for meeting our first child and it forced us to rely on God and once again learn what it means to trust God. My lessons of faith from when I had a ruptured appendicitis were affirmed that when we trust God we do not tell God how to do things or simply believe God is going to do things a certain way but we just trust God that God is going to do things the right way which may not be the way we expect. A word about his name. Originally, we thought about naming him Daniel. This seemed like a good, neutral name between Korea and America but I always had reservations because it is such a common name in America and because I got picked on by a guy named Daniel, though he went by Danny. Meanwhile, Sinae asked her dad to think of a Korean name and he came up with "Uri" as a first name which he matched with "Doe" my Korean family name which means help or willingness. "Uri" alone means us. Frankly, I wasn't all that thrilled with it to begin with just because I didn't get the nuance mentally or emotionally. But as I thought about it more and was assured it's a guy's name I started to like it. I wondered if there might by chance be a similar name in English so I consulted my name book and discovered that "Uri" with similar pronunciation means, "God is my light." At that point I decided this would be the name of Sinae's and my son (I think Sinae had already decided this actually). So there's the story. Any questions?

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