A New Day

This is the first night that my wife, Sinae, and I are in our new place of residence in Cheonan since we got married. This is all very new to me, even though we have been through three formal events which we are classifying as "getting married". Which reminds me of a riddle we came up with. "What do you call it when someone gets married three times without ever getting a divorce? International marriage." Please feel free to edit this to make it better. Meanwhile, I think this sums up our experience pretty well.

For some reason I've been more uneasy today than I've been through all the other events. Being married seems a whole lot different to me. Whereas before, I did what I wanted to when I felt like doing it, I can't do that anymore. I also feel the realization that it's not about me anymore but rather, it is about pleasing my wife. And I think there is a significant dose of fear throughout all of this, mainly because I know I have to be better than I was before I got better. I hope you don't read too much into that "have to" because it's something I want to do.

While I was in America, I bought, "The Christian Atheist", which is a pretty easy read but is giving me a lot of "food for thought" about all the ways in which I am hypocritical and how my actions don't line up with what I say I believe. I think it also reminds me that what I believe is important not just for the sake of my eternal destiny but also for the sake of how I live my life. This brings much more meaning to me as far as the significance of faith because it isn't just about being right.