Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Monday, May 4, 2009
No More Long Days
It’s been a long day. I probably start off with that quite often. I guess I’ll have to change that for next time since it seems like I have a lot of long days. Today was more relaxing than some research days because I had fewer things nagging for my attention. It helps that tomorrow is a holiday: Children’s Day. I was planning on going to Seoul to meet an acquaintance I met sometime in the past but she didn’t respond to a text message I sent last night so I thought maybe she had other plans. When I called her and thought about the possibility of going to Seoul my heartrate seemed to increase. I told her I was relieved to think that I might not have to go to Seoul. She seemed to understand in spite of making these plans when she was still in Japan. I also thought that maybe I misunderstood something since we were texting in Korean at that time.
I felt a lot better today than I felt a week ago. I’m not sure what made the difference except perhaps making some slight changes in my routine. I’m not chatting online as much these days. I don’t think this is intentional but it seems to work out that way and I find that I am more focused on getting things done and am not allowing myself to get as distracted. I figure if people want to know what is going on with me they can read my blog. I think I am being slightly more intentional about getting work done, though I still have the times where I have to convince myself that I can do whatever task is before me.
After talking to my parents and another friend I try to talk to every Monday, I started reading about Shamanism. This is helpful in learning about Korean culture and it is also relevant at times to the subject I am researching. I didn’t work on this project the whole time, however. Part of that time I worked out some kinks on airline tickets, frequent flyer miles, accounts and I even copied some corrected Korean sentences into my Korean journal. I am almost up to 300 sentences and I can still hardly have a conversation in Korean. I corresponded a few times today with a speech therapist I met at church who is interested in improving her English skills. I can justify this because it seems that I will have to speak in Korean if I want to communicate with her.
At 4pm, I had to attend a staff meeting. Today was different than usual because we had a special guest who talked to us about needs assessment. This was good in that it reminded us to be student-centered and not lesson-centered. Though we had questions at time, I think we conceded that this is a good thing overall. Since the speaker seemed to “badmouth” Korean culture a few times, I wondered what the one Korean sitting in the room was thinking.
After that I went to meet with the family I have dinner with every week. Tonight I just went with their daughters to the restaurant one floor below their apartment. Usually, Korean restaurants have a hurry, hurry (빨리 빨리) mentality but there are a few restaurants that serve spaghetti, pork and other types of dishes that are not really busy and they don’t seem to rush customers in and out of the restaurant. It is a nice environment for people like me who like to take a little bit more time eating their food. The conversation with these girls is getting easier and easier since they understand so much English. The bad part is that I don’t speak in Korean as much as I could.
After that I went to teach the class at city hall. This never seems to be the same. We usually talk about interesting subjects. Tonight I talked to them about why the taxi driver has given me a discount on a few occasions and whether I am obligated to do something for them in return. Since tipping is not allowed here there is nothing I can do. This discussion led to a conversation about how taxi drivers get paid. After that was resolved, which took a while to understand, I tried to give the people in the class more opportunity to speak. This showed me that I am speaking too much and not giving other people enough opportunity to speak. Many of the questions I ask are difficult which is good for them to think critically about in English and also for them to practice speaking in English. By the time we went around in a circle, we had gotten into a discussion about whether parents should have the right to tell their children what to do with their lives after they graduate from the university.
When I got home, I checked my e-mail, took care of a situation so that I can pay my travel agent for the flight tickets (at a relatively low cost for flying from Asia to North America), calling someone else and then I decided to go running. I knew I had many things to do but I decided to make this part of my “Brent Time”. It seems to be helpful for me to have this space to think about nothing but running and whatever happens to come to mind. I had one person say hello to me in Korean or so I thought and I responded. But then they just kind of looked at me so I wondered if I was just hallucinating.
For the past few hours I’ve been adding Korean words to my vocabulary list while also chatting a little bit with people. I eventually signed out and am about ready to crash for the night. I’m not sure this method is the perfect way to learn Korean but I haven’t figured out a better way and I think this is good for reviewing the things I am learning. I have a lot of things to do tomorrow and I am hoping to focus on grading mid-terms, studying Korean (maybe finishing the vocabulary list from the textbook and adding some more from the sentences I have recorded. My goal is to have an exhaustive vocabulary list which I can review on the plane for so many hours. I hope to finish the mid-terms tomorrow morning and then work on the Korean project in the afternoon. I’m also planning to meet my Korean teacher in front of her office so we can shop for a Korean traditional dress for my Korean cousin (one of them). That should be an interesting experience.
I felt a lot better today than I felt a week ago. I’m not sure what made the difference except perhaps making some slight changes in my routine. I’m not chatting online as much these days. I don’t think this is intentional but it seems to work out that way and I find that I am more focused on getting things done and am not allowing myself to get as distracted. I figure if people want to know what is going on with me they can read my blog. I think I am being slightly more intentional about getting work done, though I still have the times where I have to convince myself that I can do whatever task is before me.
After talking to my parents and another friend I try to talk to every Monday, I started reading about Shamanism. This is helpful in learning about Korean culture and it is also relevant at times to the subject I am researching. I didn’t work on this project the whole time, however. Part of that time I worked out some kinks on airline tickets, frequent flyer miles, accounts and I even copied some corrected Korean sentences into my Korean journal. I am almost up to 300 sentences and I can still hardly have a conversation in Korean. I corresponded a few times today with a speech therapist I met at church who is interested in improving her English skills. I can justify this because it seems that I will have to speak in Korean if I want to communicate with her.
At 4pm, I had to attend a staff meeting. Today was different than usual because we had a special guest who talked to us about needs assessment. This was good in that it reminded us to be student-centered and not lesson-centered. Though we had questions at time, I think we conceded that this is a good thing overall. Since the speaker seemed to “badmouth” Korean culture a few times, I wondered what the one Korean sitting in the room was thinking.
After that I went to meet with the family I have dinner with every week. Tonight I just went with their daughters to the restaurant one floor below their apartment. Usually, Korean restaurants have a hurry, hurry (빨리 빨리) mentality but there are a few restaurants that serve spaghetti, pork and other types of dishes that are not really busy and they don’t seem to rush customers in and out of the restaurant. It is a nice environment for people like me who like to take a little bit more time eating their food. The conversation with these girls is getting easier and easier since they understand so much English. The bad part is that I don’t speak in Korean as much as I could.
After that I went to teach the class at city hall. This never seems to be the same. We usually talk about interesting subjects. Tonight I talked to them about why the taxi driver has given me a discount on a few occasions and whether I am obligated to do something for them in return. Since tipping is not allowed here there is nothing I can do. This discussion led to a conversation about how taxi drivers get paid. After that was resolved, which took a while to understand, I tried to give the people in the class more opportunity to speak. This showed me that I am speaking too much and not giving other people enough opportunity to speak. Many of the questions I ask are difficult which is good for them to think critically about in English and also for them to practice speaking in English. By the time we went around in a circle, we had gotten into a discussion about whether parents should have the right to tell their children what to do with their lives after they graduate from the university.
When I got home, I checked my e-mail, took care of a situation so that I can pay my travel agent for the flight tickets (at a relatively low cost for flying from Asia to North America), calling someone else and then I decided to go running. I knew I had many things to do but I decided to make this part of my “Brent Time”. It seems to be helpful for me to have this space to think about nothing but running and whatever happens to come to mind. I had one person say hello to me in Korean or so I thought and I responded. But then they just kind of looked at me so I wondered if I was just hallucinating.
For the past few hours I’ve been adding Korean words to my vocabulary list while also chatting a little bit with people. I eventually signed out and am about ready to crash for the night. I’m not sure this method is the perfect way to learn Korean but I haven’t figured out a better way and I think this is good for reviewing the things I am learning. I have a lot of things to do tomorrow and I am hoping to focus on grading mid-terms, studying Korean (maybe finishing the vocabulary list from the textbook and adding some more from the sentences I have recorded. My goal is to have an exhaustive vocabulary list which I can review on the plane for so many hours. I hope to finish the mid-terms tomorrow morning and then work on the Korean project in the afternoon. I’m also planning to meet my Korean teacher in front of her office so we can shop for a Korean traditional dress for my Korean cousin (one of them). That should be an interesting experience.
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Easter and the Church
Easter and The Church
Acts 4:23-37
When I was in my 20s, there was a popular book. It was called, “Fresh Wind, Fresh Fire.” It was a book about prayer. Like “The Purpose-Driven Life,” this book was very popular. The pastor himself didn’t have a degree in Bible or theology. He claimed to base his ministry on prayer. He said that God built this church. The church was located in New York City. And he claimed that this ministry grew and grew because the people of the church prayed.
As many people ran to the bookstore to buy this book, I stayed home. When something is popular I usually go in a different way than everyone else. But I knew people who had read this book. One of these people was my pastor. She said that this book made her think about her own prayer time. She described this as a difficult experience. I thought to myself, “why would someone read a book that makes one’s life more difficult?” She thought this was a good thing. I’m sure this made her look at her prayer time differently. But I wasn’t convinced.
Around that time, I went to a youth conference. One of the workshops I went to was about this book. The person who led the workshop was also a believer in the book. He talked some about this book. Then he gave us an opportunity to experience prayertime during that workshop. After the prayertime was over with, he asked us to talk about our experience. I remember there was one girl who was deaf. She could not hear anything but during that prayertime she heard some kind of noise. She took this to be a message from God. She thought God was saying, “If you meet me like this more often, I will do great things.”
Even after this experience, I still wasn’t convinced. If God wanted to do something really great, why didn’t God just restore her hearing? It is a common thing for us to try to go back to the good ol’ days. Maybe for some of us, the good ol’ days were when we were in high school. If we are married now, maybe the good ol’ days are when we were single. If we are single, maybe we’re still looking for the good ol’ days.
Many people have read Acts with a desire to get back to the good ol’ days. They think that the church used to be perfect. If we could only be like the early church was, that would really be something. Then we could really do church. That is what this book was about. As with many popular Christian books that time came and went. The writer said that if people started praying there could be a revival. If there was one, I don’t think it happened in my church.
For some reason, I have always struggled with prayer times like these. It was like a speech class. I felt like my prayer had to go a certain way. Since I was preparing to be a minister, I thought that I had to say everything just right. I hear that same concern when I hear people ask how to pray in English. I wonder if we miss the point with prayer. Or if at least the writer of the book missed something.
This is not the first chapter in Acts. This is the fourth chapter. Much has happened here. Jesus has spent time with the disciples in his resurrected body. Jesus has told the disciples to tell the good news of Jesus dying, being buried and being raised from the dead. The disciples did what Jesus said and they got arrested.
Now I don’t know about you but I think I’d have a word or two for Jesus. “Now just a minute. I’m okay with telling people about you. But what is the point of getting arrested for obeying you.” I guess the apostles came to expect this after following a guy who got in trouble a lot. After they had been set free, they went to the church.
There is something interesting about this church that the apostles were leading. Acts 4 tells us that they went to their friends. It doesn’t tell us they went to their business partners. It doesn’t tell us that they went to the board meeting. It tells us they went to their friends. The people of this group within the Jewish faith were so close that they were friends.
For me, this word is sacred. I don’t call just anyone my friend. I have different levels of relationships. First, there are acquaintances. This is someone that I meet. I might even have lunch with them at work. But these are not quite my friends. Then there are casual friends. These are people I might have dinner with but there are some things I still don’t talk to them about. Then there are friends. These are people I’m comfortable with whom I don’t have to hang out with. I choose to hang out with them. Then there are close friends. These are the people that I tell everything to. These are the people that I call when I am depressed, when I want to talk to someone without worrying what they might think. When I read Acts, I hear the writer saying that the people of this Church that started at Pentecost were close friends. And that’s probably why the Apostles went to them first.
Now why would someone want to arrest Jesus’ apostles? Surely these were good people. Surely they didn’t make people too excited. All they were doing was being witnesses. They were telling people what they saw. But of course part of what they saw was Jewish religious leaders pushing for Jesus to be killed. And if somebody was wrong, it was probably those religious leaders. Or maybe it was the Jewish people of Israel who agreed to have Jesus crucified. I think I would arrest somebody if it looked like I had killed the Son of God.
After these apostles were set free from jail, they went back to their friends. And THEN they prayed to God in one accord. I can’t help but think that all the craze about praying is sometimes misinformed. In this story, prayer is a response to what God is doing and a request for God to continue acting. It is not enough to pray in and of itself. These followers of Jesus were praising God. They called God sovereign. This means they recognized that God is the one who creates. They didn’t give God this title often. It was a special occasion. And while they were at it, they asked God to continue to use the apostles. They wanted the disciples to speak with boldness. This means they wanted people to believe the apostles’ story. They needed to believe themselves that the story they were telling was indeed true.
And now comes the moment we’ve all been waiting, the shaking of that place. All we are left to here is imagination. We don’t know what the people said. We don’t know whether they prayed for this sort of thing to happen. It would seem unlikely that they asked God to make that place shake. And yet that is sometimes how we rate the effectiveness of a prayer meeting. We sometimes try to repeat this kind of a scenario because then we know that God is involved. And yet, we are told time and time again that if we want to experience salvation with God, we must trust God. That means there is an element of uncertainty.
I should probably apologize to you for choosing such a long passage to read from this morning. I’m sorry. I could have chosen Acts 4:23-31. Or I could have chosen Acts 4:32-37. If I chose Acts 4:23-31, I worried that we might think praying is enough. And if I chose Acts 4:31-37 we might think that serving is enough. Acts 4:31-37 is about service. It would be easy for me to go this direction. Where is God involved in the world? I think it must be with poor people. It must be in helping those who can’t help themselves. But if God is relational, surely prayer is important too. This is where I struggle. It’s difficult for me to pray to a God that I can’t see or hear or understand. So I thought this sermon would speak to me if I included both parts. And maybe by including both parts it will speak to you, too.
The text tells us that there was great grace upon the apostles. We often think of grace as this forgiveness that God gives us. We talk about God’s gracing overlooking our sins. But grace is much more than this. It also refers to God giving us power. And that is what God did for the apostles.
The disciples were testifying to the resurrection of Jesus Christ. We are still celebrating the resurrection of Jesus Christ. This is the fourth week after Easter. It was a new day after Jesus was raised from the dead. It was originally the apostles’ duty to talk about Jesus being raised from the dead. And now it is our turn. How do we talk about Jesus being raised from the dead?
On Easter Sunday I went to the Seoul Anglican Cathedral, 서울대성당. The priest gave a decent sermon. First he preached in English and then he preaced in Korean. I was impressed since he is a native English speaker. I was convinced that he researched the passage well. But I was also disappointed that he didn’t talk about what difference the resurrection makes today.
The resurrection was central to the message of the apostles. Yes, they talked about Jesus’ life. Yes, they talked about Jesus dying on the cross. Yes, they talked about Jesus being buried. But the good news is that Jesus was raised from the dead. And the good news that carries from the good news is that life can be different. Life can be better.
So what difference does the resurrection of Jesus make to 나사렛대학교회? Why are we here? What difference does the resurrection make to this English service? Why do we come here every week at 9am? We could go to the 11:00 service and even get to sleep in. Is there a reason? Is it so we can improve our English? Is it to extend an invitation to people who don’t go to any church? Is it to connect with the students of this university? Is it to minister to people in the community where this church is located? Are we doing that?
There is an important detail that I failed to mention. It was the result of the prayer meeting in the room that shook. The people asked God to give the apostles authority. How did God do this? God filled them with the Holy Spirit. This wasn’t the first time the apostles experienced the Holy Spirit. To say this was the first time they received the Holy Spirit would be misleading. This was a fresh infilling of God’s Spirit. Now why would God do this if God only wanted those Christians to pray? Lots of people pray. They don’t need the Holy Spirit to do that. But in order to fulfill God’s call for us, we need to experience God’s power that comes through the Holy Spirit.
When a church does what the apostles and the early Christians did, we say, “the Church is being The Church”. Unfortunately, many times this is not the case. Many times people don’t extend love to other people. I wish I could simply ask whether that is the case at this church. But I’m afraid it is the case. There is a lack of community here. People come here because they have to or because their spouse has to. Perhaps there are people who come here for other reasons. But having talked to university students who haven’t experienced that grace at this church, what can we do to change it?
There are lots of ministries where the Church is being The Church. These come in a lot of different forms. One of these is the XXXChurch. This is a ministry that was started to help people who are addicted to pornography. Pastors from this church go to events where there are strippers dancing on stage. Their motto is, “Jesus loves porn stars.” Their goal is not to shut down the companies that produce these materials. Rather, they want to help people addicted to these types of materials to be free.
Yesterday I talked to a friend of mine about what it would be like for the Church to be The Church. He imagined that the Church could be so much more if people were honest. The word used to describe the relationship of the people at church in Acts is “friends”. This takes grace. It’s easier to come, do our thing of going to church and then going home or to the Yawoori or whatever. But to develop relationships with people takes work. Let it start with us, in the English congregation at 나사렛대학교회. Look around for the students. Don’t assume they have enough friends. Look around for the people you don’t know. Think about walking around the neighborhood and helping those who can’t help themselves. I think my friend is right about the Church. If we realize the resurrection of Jesus in our own lives, we could make our lives better and everyone else's.
Acts 4:23-37
When I was in my 20s, there was a popular book. It was called, “Fresh Wind, Fresh Fire.” It was a book about prayer. Like “The Purpose-Driven Life,” this book was very popular. The pastor himself didn’t have a degree in Bible or theology. He claimed to base his ministry on prayer. He said that God built this church. The church was located in New York City. And he claimed that this ministry grew and grew because the people of the church prayed.
As many people ran to the bookstore to buy this book, I stayed home. When something is popular I usually go in a different way than everyone else. But I knew people who had read this book. One of these people was my pastor. She said that this book made her think about her own prayer time. She described this as a difficult experience. I thought to myself, “why would someone read a book that makes one’s life more difficult?” She thought this was a good thing. I’m sure this made her look at her prayer time differently. But I wasn’t convinced.
Around that time, I went to a youth conference. One of the workshops I went to was about this book. The person who led the workshop was also a believer in the book. He talked some about this book. Then he gave us an opportunity to experience prayertime during that workshop. After the prayertime was over with, he asked us to talk about our experience. I remember there was one girl who was deaf. She could not hear anything but during that prayertime she heard some kind of noise. She took this to be a message from God. She thought God was saying, “If you meet me like this more often, I will do great things.”
Even after this experience, I still wasn’t convinced. If God wanted to do something really great, why didn’t God just restore her hearing? It is a common thing for us to try to go back to the good ol’ days. Maybe for some of us, the good ol’ days were when we were in high school. If we are married now, maybe the good ol’ days are when we were single. If we are single, maybe we’re still looking for the good ol’ days.
Many people have read Acts with a desire to get back to the good ol’ days. They think that the church used to be perfect. If we could only be like the early church was, that would really be something. Then we could really do church. That is what this book was about. As with many popular Christian books that time came and went. The writer said that if people started praying there could be a revival. If there was one, I don’t think it happened in my church.
For some reason, I have always struggled with prayer times like these. It was like a speech class. I felt like my prayer had to go a certain way. Since I was preparing to be a minister, I thought that I had to say everything just right. I hear that same concern when I hear people ask how to pray in English. I wonder if we miss the point with prayer. Or if at least the writer of the book missed something.
This is not the first chapter in Acts. This is the fourth chapter. Much has happened here. Jesus has spent time with the disciples in his resurrected body. Jesus has told the disciples to tell the good news of Jesus dying, being buried and being raised from the dead. The disciples did what Jesus said and they got arrested.
Now I don’t know about you but I think I’d have a word or two for Jesus. “Now just a minute. I’m okay with telling people about you. But what is the point of getting arrested for obeying you.” I guess the apostles came to expect this after following a guy who got in trouble a lot. After they had been set free, they went to the church.
There is something interesting about this church that the apostles were leading. Acts 4 tells us that they went to their friends. It doesn’t tell us they went to their business partners. It doesn’t tell us that they went to the board meeting. It tells us they went to their friends. The people of this group within the Jewish faith were so close that they were friends.
For me, this word is sacred. I don’t call just anyone my friend. I have different levels of relationships. First, there are acquaintances. This is someone that I meet. I might even have lunch with them at work. But these are not quite my friends. Then there are casual friends. These are people I might have dinner with but there are some things I still don’t talk to them about. Then there are friends. These are people I’m comfortable with whom I don’t have to hang out with. I choose to hang out with them. Then there are close friends. These are the people that I tell everything to. These are the people that I call when I am depressed, when I want to talk to someone without worrying what they might think. When I read Acts, I hear the writer saying that the people of this Church that started at Pentecost were close friends. And that’s probably why the Apostles went to them first.
Now why would someone want to arrest Jesus’ apostles? Surely these were good people. Surely they didn’t make people too excited. All they were doing was being witnesses. They were telling people what they saw. But of course part of what they saw was Jewish religious leaders pushing for Jesus to be killed. And if somebody was wrong, it was probably those religious leaders. Or maybe it was the Jewish people of Israel who agreed to have Jesus crucified. I think I would arrest somebody if it looked like I had killed the Son of God.
After these apostles were set free from jail, they went back to their friends. And THEN they prayed to God in one accord. I can’t help but think that all the craze about praying is sometimes misinformed. In this story, prayer is a response to what God is doing and a request for God to continue acting. It is not enough to pray in and of itself. These followers of Jesus were praising God. They called God sovereign. This means they recognized that God is the one who creates. They didn’t give God this title often. It was a special occasion. And while they were at it, they asked God to continue to use the apostles. They wanted the disciples to speak with boldness. This means they wanted people to believe the apostles’ story. They needed to believe themselves that the story they were telling was indeed true.
And now comes the moment we’ve all been waiting, the shaking of that place. All we are left to here is imagination. We don’t know what the people said. We don’t know whether they prayed for this sort of thing to happen. It would seem unlikely that they asked God to make that place shake. And yet that is sometimes how we rate the effectiveness of a prayer meeting. We sometimes try to repeat this kind of a scenario because then we know that God is involved. And yet, we are told time and time again that if we want to experience salvation with God, we must trust God. That means there is an element of uncertainty.
I should probably apologize to you for choosing such a long passage to read from this morning. I’m sorry. I could have chosen Acts 4:23-31. Or I could have chosen Acts 4:32-37. If I chose Acts 4:23-31, I worried that we might think praying is enough. And if I chose Acts 4:31-37 we might think that serving is enough. Acts 4:31-37 is about service. It would be easy for me to go this direction. Where is God involved in the world? I think it must be with poor people. It must be in helping those who can’t help themselves. But if God is relational, surely prayer is important too. This is where I struggle. It’s difficult for me to pray to a God that I can’t see or hear or understand. So I thought this sermon would speak to me if I included both parts. And maybe by including both parts it will speak to you, too.
The text tells us that there was great grace upon the apostles. We often think of grace as this forgiveness that God gives us. We talk about God’s gracing overlooking our sins. But grace is much more than this. It also refers to God giving us power. And that is what God did for the apostles.
The disciples were testifying to the resurrection of Jesus Christ. We are still celebrating the resurrection of Jesus Christ. This is the fourth week after Easter. It was a new day after Jesus was raised from the dead. It was originally the apostles’ duty to talk about Jesus being raised from the dead. And now it is our turn. How do we talk about Jesus being raised from the dead?
On Easter Sunday I went to the Seoul Anglican Cathedral, 서울대성당. The priest gave a decent sermon. First he preached in English and then he preaced in Korean. I was impressed since he is a native English speaker. I was convinced that he researched the passage well. But I was also disappointed that he didn’t talk about what difference the resurrection makes today.
The resurrection was central to the message of the apostles. Yes, they talked about Jesus’ life. Yes, they talked about Jesus dying on the cross. Yes, they talked about Jesus being buried. But the good news is that Jesus was raised from the dead. And the good news that carries from the good news is that life can be different. Life can be better.
So what difference does the resurrection of Jesus make to 나사렛대학교회? Why are we here? What difference does the resurrection make to this English service? Why do we come here every week at 9am? We could go to the 11:00 service and even get to sleep in. Is there a reason? Is it so we can improve our English? Is it to extend an invitation to people who don’t go to any church? Is it to connect with the students of this university? Is it to minister to people in the community where this church is located? Are we doing that?
There is an important detail that I failed to mention. It was the result of the prayer meeting in the room that shook. The people asked God to give the apostles authority. How did God do this? God filled them with the Holy Spirit. This wasn’t the first time the apostles experienced the Holy Spirit. To say this was the first time they received the Holy Spirit would be misleading. This was a fresh infilling of God’s Spirit. Now why would God do this if God only wanted those Christians to pray? Lots of people pray. They don’t need the Holy Spirit to do that. But in order to fulfill God’s call for us, we need to experience God’s power that comes through the Holy Spirit.
When a church does what the apostles and the early Christians did, we say, “the Church is being The Church”. Unfortunately, many times this is not the case. Many times people don’t extend love to other people. I wish I could simply ask whether that is the case at this church. But I’m afraid it is the case. There is a lack of community here. People come here because they have to or because their spouse has to. Perhaps there are people who come here for other reasons. But having talked to university students who haven’t experienced that grace at this church, what can we do to change it?
There are lots of ministries where the Church is being The Church. These come in a lot of different forms. One of these is the XXXChurch. This is a ministry that was started to help people who are addicted to pornography. Pastors from this church go to events where there are strippers dancing on stage. Their motto is, “Jesus loves porn stars.” Their goal is not to shut down the companies that produce these materials. Rather, they want to help people addicted to these types of materials to be free.
Yesterday I talked to a friend of mine about what it would be like for the Church to be The Church. He imagined that the Church could be so much more if people were honest. The word used to describe the relationship of the people at church in Acts is “friends”. This takes grace. It’s easier to come, do our thing of going to church and then going home or to the Yawoori or whatever. But to develop relationships with people takes work. Let it start with us, in the English congregation at 나사렛대학교회. Look around for the students. Don’t assume they have enough friends. Look around for the people you don’t know. Think about walking around the neighborhood and helping those who can’t help themselves. I think my friend is right about the Church. If we realize the resurrection of Jesus in our own lives, we could make our lives better and everyone else's.
Another Good Day
Today has been a long, but enjoyable and even a productive day. It started with an English service, a Korean service, lunch, translating the first sentence of the Lord’s prayer from Korean into English (still trying to figure out what to do with the difference in Korean grammar, like where it says that God’s hallowed name is received), hiking, dinner at home, watching a Korean movie, cleaning my apartment, and filling out my district license renewal application.
The first thing on my list of things to do was to participate in the English service at one of the churches I am involved in. I had more responsibility today because I preached and I did the things I usually do (confession, reading the scripture, leading the congregation in confessing the Apostles’ Creed and giving the benediction. One person told me she feels inspired when she listens to my sermons. Another person told me I spoke slower today than usual which is a good thing I think. After this I waited for two students who have been missing the class the last few weeks because of schedule conflicts or tests.
At 11:00 I went to the Korean service at the same church. I was going to do something to keep myself occupied and then I decided to write down as many words as I could make out during the sermon. I came up with 150 or more and was told they were mostly right (nobody told me exactly how many were wrong). I found this to be much less frustrating than simply listening to a sermon where it seems that most of what is being said doesn’t make sense to me.
Then I ate lunch with two guys I know and get along with rather well. We didn’t talk real long because the people responsible for cleaning the room where we ate asked us to leave so that they could clean the tables. This doesn’t quite seem hospitable to me but it is common at this church for people to do that sort of thing.
After that, I went to the other church where I am involved. The Korean name means “Grace” when translated into English. I think this is much more of a “grace place” than the church I went to this morning. I don’t know how intelligible my thoughts were about the first sentence of the Lord’s prayer were. This was complicated by a word or series of words in Korean that mean to receive. It seems questionable whether the person praying or God is receiving.
After this class, I played around with some children at church, one of which goes to the class I taught. When we left, his mom asked if I am busy (in Korean). I wasn’t quite sure what she said and I ended up being invited to hike with them at a mountain nearby. The truth was that I needed to grade some mid-terms but I wasn’t sure I would get anything done at home. I most certainly didn’t want to spend hours at home getting nothing done so I decided to say yes.
This was an interesting time since only two people could speak a little English and the other two could only speak Korean. I made the youngest person laugh when I called the children “grandma” or “grandpa” in Korean. After we came down from the mountain, the mother who invited me bought ice creamish snacks for all of us. When we got to my apartment (officestel) building I said goodbye and made some dinner.
I watched a Korean movie while I ate rice, tofu and kimchi. This was another interesting movie that started with a proverb about making branches move with one’s spirit and mind. I tried to listen to what people were saying in Korean but since the subtitles were in English I paid more attention to the story line than learning the Korean words that were being used.
After the movie was over I decided it was time to clean my apartment. I tend to let it get a little dirty before I clean it. Then when I realize that the clutter is distracting me from doing my work, I do a thorough cleaning. I’m guessing this happens once a month. I think the last time I did this was when my ex-girlfriend came over here and I basically ruined the relationship. Several hours later, I was done with the apartment and now I have the satisfaction of setting my mind to do something and actually doing it without spending several hours convincing myself that I can really do it. I was interrupted by this exciting activity by the same woman who bought ice cream for all of us after hiking when she brought me kimchi. This was another kind gesture on her part.
When I came back, I sent a text message to one of the people leading the English service asking her if she was okay. She called me and we talked about the service. I was aggravated by the fact that the senior pastor wants to continue the English service without helping us find people to lead it in a way that is better. One person suggested that we include the sermon in Korean in the bulletin. I think that if we do that we might as well have the service be in Korean. It is frustrating to me that people seem to think we should be to blame when they can’t understand it. I don’t notice anybody trying to make a Korean service simpler just because I am there. But I guess that is to be expected since I am the guest.
An hour after that I finished cleaning my apartment and then I decided to check my e-mail and found information about applying for the renewal of my district license. Even though it was quite late by then, I decided to finish the application tonight so that I can focus on reading tomorrow. I have a ton of work to do to catch up on the research I’m behind on. So now it is 1:35am and I think I am ready to get some shuteye.
The highlight of today was definitely going hiking with the people from “Grace Church” and then reading the text message from one person who asked me if I needed kimchi (in Korean of course) and later brought it to me. This is in spite of the fact that she can’t speak much English. It seems like the mothers of these children are really trying to look out for me. This makes it very difficult for me to complain about Christians being hypocrites. These people seem to be interested in practicing what they preach. If I could do anything I think I would back off of the church where we are trying to have an English service and just go to Grace Church. But it is difficult because I wouldn’t be able to do anything in a church service if I didn’t participate in this service, at least not in a Korean church. But I think we need to do some major planning if we decide to continue, and it seems that none of us have time to really plan for it.
The first thing on my list of things to do was to participate in the English service at one of the churches I am involved in. I had more responsibility today because I preached and I did the things I usually do (confession, reading the scripture, leading the congregation in confessing the Apostles’ Creed and giving the benediction. One person told me she feels inspired when she listens to my sermons. Another person told me I spoke slower today than usual which is a good thing I think. After this I waited for two students who have been missing the class the last few weeks because of schedule conflicts or tests.
At 11:00 I went to the Korean service at the same church. I was going to do something to keep myself occupied and then I decided to write down as many words as I could make out during the sermon. I came up with 150 or more and was told they were mostly right (nobody told me exactly how many were wrong). I found this to be much less frustrating than simply listening to a sermon where it seems that most of what is being said doesn’t make sense to me.
Then I ate lunch with two guys I know and get along with rather well. We didn’t talk real long because the people responsible for cleaning the room where we ate asked us to leave so that they could clean the tables. This doesn’t quite seem hospitable to me but it is common at this church for people to do that sort of thing.
After that, I went to the other church where I am involved. The Korean name means “Grace” when translated into English. I think this is much more of a “grace place” than the church I went to this morning. I don’t know how intelligible my thoughts were about the first sentence of the Lord’s prayer were. This was complicated by a word or series of words in Korean that mean to receive. It seems questionable whether the person praying or God is receiving.
After this class, I played around with some children at church, one of which goes to the class I taught. When we left, his mom asked if I am busy (in Korean). I wasn’t quite sure what she said and I ended up being invited to hike with them at a mountain nearby. The truth was that I needed to grade some mid-terms but I wasn’t sure I would get anything done at home. I most certainly didn’t want to spend hours at home getting nothing done so I decided to say yes.
This was an interesting time since only two people could speak a little English and the other two could only speak Korean. I made the youngest person laugh when I called the children “grandma” or “grandpa” in Korean. After we came down from the mountain, the mother who invited me bought ice creamish snacks for all of us. When we got to my apartment (officestel) building I said goodbye and made some dinner.
I watched a Korean movie while I ate rice, tofu and kimchi. This was another interesting movie that started with a proverb about making branches move with one’s spirit and mind. I tried to listen to what people were saying in Korean but since the subtitles were in English I paid more attention to the story line than learning the Korean words that were being used.
After the movie was over I decided it was time to clean my apartment. I tend to let it get a little dirty before I clean it. Then when I realize that the clutter is distracting me from doing my work, I do a thorough cleaning. I’m guessing this happens once a month. I think the last time I did this was when my ex-girlfriend came over here and I basically ruined the relationship. Several hours later, I was done with the apartment and now I have the satisfaction of setting my mind to do something and actually doing it without spending several hours convincing myself that I can really do it. I was interrupted by this exciting activity by the same woman who bought ice cream for all of us after hiking when she brought me kimchi. This was another kind gesture on her part.
When I came back, I sent a text message to one of the people leading the English service asking her if she was okay. She called me and we talked about the service. I was aggravated by the fact that the senior pastor wants to continue the English service without helping us find people to lead it in a way that is better. One person suggested that we include the sermon in Korean in the bulletin. I think that if we do that we might as well have the service be in Korean. It is frustrating to me that people seem to think we should be to blame when they can’t understand it. I don’t notice anybody trying to make a Korean service simpler just because I am there. But I guess that is to be expected since I am the guest.
An hour after that I finished cleaning my apartment and then I decided to check my e-mail and found information about applying for the renewal of my district license. Even though it was quite late by then, I decided to finish the application tonight so that I can focus on reading tomorrow. I have a ton of work to do to catch up on the research I’m behind on. So now it is 1:35am and I think I am ready to get some shuteye.
The highlight of today was definitely going hiking with the people from “Grace Church” and then reading the text message from one person who asked me if I needed kimchi (in Korean of course) and later brought it to me. This is in spite of the fact that she can’t speak much English. It seems like the mothers of these children are really trying to look out for me. This makes it very difficult for me to complain about Christians being hypocrites. These people seem to be interested in practicing what they preach. If I could do anything I think I would back off of the church where we are trying to have an English service and just go to Grace Church. But it is difficult because I wouldn’t be able to do anything in a church service if I didn’t participate in this service, at least not in a Korean church. But I think we need to do some major planning if we decide to continue, and it seems that none of us have time to really plan for it.
Saturday, May 2, 2009
A Bizarre Day
Today was a bizarre kind of day. It started out good. I woke up about eight or nine hours after I went to sleep. Unfortunately I didn’t sleep very well. I felt like I was on top of the mountain when I woke up. Then I got distracted by calling a friend in America. The conversation was very worthwhile but I got my mind off of what I was doing. After I finished talking with him I chatted for several hours with another friend. Again, this conversation was worthwhile but it didn’t help me in getting my work done.
I was dreading writing a sermon because of my chronic perfectionistic tendencies. This was heightened by the difficulty of writing a sermon that is usually difficult for people to understand. So I read through some commentaries and then decided to take a nap. I had to drag myself out of bed at 6 to write the sermon. I wondered if I was writing it in vain since the copy center closed. At 7:30 or so I headed to the university campus to see if they were still open and sure enough they were closed.
On my way to the university I ran into one of my colleagues and his wife. He suggested to me that I print off my sermon at a PC bang (aka a computer/internet cafe). He also invited me to stop by their apartment to get some books I asked about before. Since the copy center was closed I went to Kimbap Nara for some dinner. I’m trying to branch out to other restaurants when I am alone but I chose this restaurant since I’m familiar with it and I was relatively close to it. When I ordered the waitress asked me something I didn’t understand. I understood 괜찮아요? (okay) so I said “yes”. It all seemed to work out okay since the meal was good.
After that, I went to the PC bang to print off my sermon. I had some difficulties printing it off at the computer so the guy at the desk let me print it off from his computer. As I was paying for it, he asked me where I live. I told him and he said that he would like to become friends with a foreigner. Alarms went off inside of me while at the same time I was excited about the fact that someone might want to be friends with me. So I said I am looking for a Korean friend and that I am not interested in teaching English. He seemed to be okay with that. We will see. One of my uncles, the paternal uncle who still talks to me, told me once that if I am out and about I might find a friend where I least expected to find one.
After that I went to my colleague’s apartment and his wife offered me ice cream. I think I got there around 8:30 and I left at 10:30. This was an interesting conversation in many ways.
I spent most of the day in my apartment and I didn’t get very much done. I was hoping to grade mid-terms and add more words to my Korean vocabulary list but I didn’t get either of those things done. The highlight of the day was definitely hanging out tonight with a colleague and his wife. It’s amazing how being with people changes my attitude towards myself.
I was dreading writing a sermon because of my chronic perfectionistic tendencies. This was heightened by the difficulty of writing a sermon that is usually difficult for people to understand. So I read through some commentaries and then decided to take a nap. I had to drag myself out of bed at 6 to write the sermon. I wondered if I was writing it in vain since the copy center closed. At 7:30 or so I headed to the university campus to see if they were still open and sure enough they were closed.
On my way to the university I ran into one of my colleagues and his wife. He suggested to me that I print off my sermon at a PC bang (aka a computer/internet cafe). He also invited me to stop by their apartment to get some books I asked about before. Since the copy center was closed I went to Kimbap Nara for some dinner. I’m trying to branch out to other restaurants when I am alone but I chose this restaurant since I’m familiar with it and I was relatively close to it. When I ordered the waitress asked me something I didn’t understand. I understood 괜찮아요? (okay) so I said “yes”. It all seemed to work out okay since the meal was good.
After that, I went to the PC bang to print off my sermon. I had some difficulties printing it off at the computer so the guy at the desk let me print it off from his computer. As I was paying for it, he asked me where I live. I told him and he said that he would like to become friends with a foreigner. Alarms went off inside of me while at the same time I was excited about the fact that someone might want to be friends with me. So I said I am looking for a Korean friend and that I am not interested in teaching English. He seemed to be okay with that. We will see. One of my uncles, the paternal uncle who still talks to me, told me once that if I am out and about I might find a friend where I least expected to find one.
After that I went to my colleague’s apartment and his wife offered me ice cream. I think I got there around 8:30 and I left at 10:30. This was an interesting conversation in many ways.
I spent most of the day in my apartment and I didn’t get very much done. I was hoping to grade mid-terms and add more words to my Korean vocabulary list but I didn’t get either of those things done. The highlight of the day was definitely hanging out tonight with a colleague and his wife. It’s amazing how being with people changes my attitude towards myself.
Friday, May 1, 2009
An Interesting Day
Happy May Day! I didn’t realize it but today is International Labor Day. I just want to know why I didn’t have today off. Maybe it has something to do with Children’s Day which is coming up on Tuesday.
This was a less eventful day today than yesterday. All I did today was teach a class, eat lunch with two students and a professor, meet with a counselor and then I met with another professor whom I had dinner with. The class didn’t go as well as I had hoped. A few of the students told me they would like to have more opportunity to speak so I tried to give them more opportunity to speak. This meant they just spoke in Korean more. I’m not sure what to do about this situation.
I was going to have lunch with a professor whom I usually meet with on Fridays but I never received a response from him regarding my e-mail. It turned out that his response was in his drafts folder so I never received it and I thought he was busy. I was going to have lunch alone and I ran into a few students I know so we had lunch together. We tried to speak in Korean but we ended up speaking in English after all.
After lunch I went back to my office to work on things for a while before my appointment at 2pm. I wasn’t very productive during that time because I was nervous about meeting a counselor at 2pm. This was supposed to be a diagnosis of my recent emotional state. I was beginning to think I might have clinical depression but she didn’t even see the point of me meeting with a psychiatrist. She did advise me to seek counseling if this were a more ideal setting where she knew someone who wasn’t busy, didn’t charge as much money and who could speak English very well. I thought her English was good but she seemed to think it wouldn’t be good enough. In any event, after talking for an hour-and-a-half, she basically told me that she doesn’t perceive me having any major problems and that I need to develop some friendships or else I will get worse. So I guess this is a refresher course from earlier times in my life when I was “depressed” as a result of being lonely.
Meeting with another professor went well, though I found this to be very exhausting. Even though his English is good we still have difficulties communicating with each other. This makes me think it will be just as frustrating to communicate with people in Korean if I ever get anywhere near close to being able to communicate in Korean. Sometimes it seems that we are just not on the same page.
After I came home, I decided I needed to start running. So before I turned the computer on I changed my clothes and I went running. I must confess that I didn’t run the whole time but I ran part of the time as I explored this part of the city where I live. I tried to find a coffee shop where I might be able to work tomorrow but I forgot that I have some commentaries to read so I guess I will stay here until I get that done. Hopefully I will be able to go to a restaurant around here for lunch. I think at the very least I need to stop staying in my apartment all day. It is sometimes difficult choosing a restaurant to eat at alone because some places only sell food that is too much for one person to eat. Eating in a restaurant makes me feel good because ordering in Korean gives me confidence about communicating with the waiter or waitress. It also makes me feel good just to be around people. Part of me wonders if my difficulties are related to a personality change because it seems that I am becoming more and more energized as I am around people. I think I better be reading somewhere else for my research project on Monday so I can actually get something done.
That was a long tangent. After I got home from running, I tried to start working on my sermon for Sunday. I was not at all enthused about preaching earlier today. I’m still uneasy about it because it seems like most people don’t understand what I am saying. I do a lot of reading for it and I wonder if this is in vain to some degree. What often happens is that I use too many big words and too long of sentences. I am not sure that reading the sermon is helpful either.
I thought that running would give me more energy but instead it seems to have made me more tired. Perhaps this is a good thing because I’ve been having more trouble sleeping. The only thing I haven’t done yet is add more Korean words to my vocabulary list. I might just let myself have one night off so I can get some shuteye.
This was a less eventful day today than yesterday. All I did today was teach a class, eat lunch with two students and a professor, meet with a counselor and then I met with another professor whom I had dinner with. The class didn’t go as well as I had hoped. A few of the students told me they would like to have more opportunity to speak so I tried to give them more opportunity to speak. This meant they just spoke in Korean more. I’m not sure what to do about this situation.
I was going to have lunch with a professor whom I usually meet with on Fridays but I never received a response from him regarding my e-mail. It turned out that his response was in his drafts folder so I never received it and I thought he was busy. I was going to have lunch alone and I ran into a few students I know so we had lunch together. We tried to speak in Korean but we ended up speaking in English after all.
After lunch I went back to my office to work on things for a while before my appointment at 2pm. I wasn’t very productive during that time because I was nervous about meeting a counselor at 2pm. This was supposed to be a diagnosis of my recent emotional state. I was beginning to think I might have clinical depression but she didn’t even see the point of me meeting with a psychiatrist. She did advise me to seek counseling if this were a more ideal setting where she knew someone who wasn’t busy, didn’t charge as much money and who could speak English very well. I thought her English was good but she seemed to think it wouldn’t be good enough. In any event, after talking for an hour-and-a-half, she basically told me that she doesn’t perceive me having any major problems and that I need to develop some friendships or else I will get worse. So I guess this is a refresher course from earlier times in my life when I was “depressed” as a result of being lonely.
Meeting with another professor went well, though I found this to be very exhausting. Even though his English is good we still have difficulties communicating with each other. This makes me think it will be just as frustrating to communicate with people in Korean if I ever get anywhere near close to being able to communicate in Korean. Sometimes it seems that we are just not on the same page.
After I came home, I decided I needed to start running. So before I turned the computer on I changed my clothes and I went running. I must confess that I didn’t run the whole time but I ran part of the time as I explored this part of the city where I live. I tried to find a coffee shop where I might be able to work tomorrow but I forgot that I have some commentaries to read so I guess I will stay here until I get that done. Hopefully I will be able to go to a restaurant around here for lunch. I think at the very least I need to stop staying in my apartment all day. It is sometimes difficult choosing a restaurant to eat at alone because some places only sell food that is too much for one person to eat. Eating in a restaurant makes me feel good because ordering in Korean gives me confidence about communicating with the waiter or waitress. It also makes me feel good just to be around people. Part of me wonders if my difficulties are related to a personality change because it seems that I am becoming more and more energized as I am around people. I think I better be reading somewhere else for my research project on Monday so I can actually get something done.
That was a long tangent. After I got home from running, I tried to start working on my sermon for Sunday. I was not at all enthused about preaching earlier today. I’m still uneasy about it because it seems like most people don’t understand what I am saying. I do a lot of reading for it and I wonder if this is in vain to some degree. What often happens is that I use too many big words and too long of sentences. I am not sure that reading the sermon is helpful either.
I thought that running would give me more energy but instead it seems to have made me more tired. Perhaps this is a good thing because I’ve been having more trouble sleeping. The only thing I haven’t done yet is add more Korean words to my vocabulary list. I might just let myself have one night off so I can get some shuteye.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)